next sex

i am not saying that
i dont want to be made
love to.

i know that the fucking game
is beyond me.
it lacks a ritual of trust
and care

id like to request that
the next sex that
 i experience
be an exceptional situation.

the next sex given
will be one shared.
not only like views
but he will know that
when he touches me that
that was all it took
his caress
be it my forehead, my side
my hands
or the feel of his eyes being
set upon me with genuine interest
and no hope or chance of hurting me
will give me such a joyous chill
that only a natural fever can heal.

he willl know that
when i lay my eyes upon him,
it be not his aesthetics
but his body, mind and
soul that sparks my interest
that i shall linger to hear whatever
word he shall next speak
and that my silence,
especially when my mind is racing
with thoughts of him
is me gently listening to his heart
trying to hear it tell me if it is
the ribcage to which i belong

the next sex i have will be
the most intimate experience
that i may ever wish to experience
it shall be a combination of forces
body mind and spirit
of a king and his queen
no room
for hurt, distrust or
possibility for anything
in the absence of care.

now i have patiently
wait
sit a spell
relax
until that eventful
event...
whenever my next sex